I'm sorry too

To you my friend,

I'm sorry too. I'm sorry that I always talk without thinking it through. It's a habit of mine. I know it sounded like an excuse, but it's my horrible habit.

I'm sorry that I've hurt you with my words. I know I'm blunt at times, unnecessary-ly being blunt. I know I've uttered some harsh and hurtful words. I might have shouted at you too. I'm sorry.

Thank you for hugging me earlier. It was awkward, but it felt right. :)

I know you said that you prefer a face to face kind a thing, but for me it's awkward. I can talk without stop for hours or days and might even for a week! But not when it comes to my real feelings. I prefer this. I prefer to write it down or in this case, to type it out. If you try to talk to me about this face to face, I'll froze. Like I did earlier.. I don't know why, but I'll always froze or suddenly become mute or paralyse when it comes to expressing real deep feelings..

I'm sorry again for everything. I'll be careful with my words, my voice, my thoughts. It's not just with you, but with others as well.

Thank you for being here. Beside me. And once again, I'm sorry.

PS: If I happen to hurt you again (hopefully not), please let me know. As I said, I prefer an indirect way. You can write a letter and put it in my bag or on my bed, or write it on your blog.. But I would recommend you to NOT tell me face to face because I might not be able to 'accept' it and I might ended up saying things that I shouldn't.. I'm sorry for being this complicated friend. 

I hope things will get better :) Amin.