When the silence is deafening

What do you naturally do when you're hurt?

Get angry? Cry? Run? Hide? Attack? Hurt others?

or

Do you just ignore? Do nothing? Move on? Accept it without feeling anything?

What do u do?

This past few years, this is what I learn about myself. I found out how I reacted when i'm hurt.

I hide and dissappear.
I shut everyone out.
I shut the whole world.

While doing so
My emotions go wild
I cry until I dont have any energy left
I scream my heart out
I drive aimlessly

While that is happening
My mind goes crazy too
I plan on how to hurt others back
I go online and read on heart-breaking quotes
I made promises to myself to not do this and that anymore
I convince myself that I will be okay
I remind myself to be kind and forgiving

Then

I simply accept that life is a test
I accept that I should never expect a return
I accept that I would not get what I give
I accept that I will always be the one who gives more
I accept that Allah is the most merciful
I accept that this could be a way Allah is giving me a chance to be forgiven

And eventually

I sleep with tears
I sleep with sorrow
I sleep with hope that the pain will go away when I wake up

That's how I react when I got hurt.

Someone said, when I got hurt, the world is silent. And the silence is deafening.